He listens

Ever felt like you are completely alone? Somehow you are in a crowd of people, yet you feel like you are an island in the middle of the ocean. You feel like no one cares, no one pays any attention to you. That you are just there for decoration, that you don't really matter. You are just there to make up numbers so that the powers that be can get a kick out of seeing so many people and have their ego stroked by the fact that there are so many people attending and having a great time. You have friends but no one who truly understands. You feel like you listen, you only listen, listen to your friends problems but all you manage to say is just a tinee tiny fraction of what you feel and what you want to tell them. The conversation is all about them in a moment, always them. Your input is minimal, except when they want your advise. You are the eternal listener. They are friends with you because they need you to listen to them, they don't really care what happens to you. YOU are disposable. YOU are not necessary. No one would miss you if you go. You have a voice but there's no one to listen. There's no one interested in listening.
I felt like that, I still feel like that. The difference is........drumroll.......... I KNOW Jesus listens. Oh, I feel down and lonely. Yes, I hold on to problems, magnified responsibilities, hurts, aches, negative comments and I don't know how to let go. Once when I was a baby I got a hold on the hair of my head and didn't know how to let go. I pulled and pulled, (maybe) thinking that if I did that that funny feeling thing in my hand wouldn't be there. I pulled and pulled and pulled to no avail. The only thing that happened was, I started to bleed. It hurt so much and like any self respecting baby, I cried. This story is absolutely true by the way, I have my mom as witness. That's the way I am with problems, I hold on and don't know how to let go. I'm learning to now, learning to cast all my cares upon Jesus. I have the added assurance that he loves me and he listens. The God who created the Earth and the skies. He who knows the names of ALL the stars in the sky, knows every strand of hair on my body. Even if there are millions and millions of people on this Earth, he listens to ME, me who feels like I'm completely alone, who feels that no one listens. HE, the King of Kings, the Lord of Lords, Creator and Ruler of everything, is willing to listen to me............I feel LOVED~ Very loved.
To anyone out there, whom I know and don't know. If you are feeling down and alone, depressed and hopeless. Know that Jesus cares. He loves you. Very very much. You are not alone. The Prince of Peace is with you.