Ever felt like you are completely alone? Somehow you are in a crowd of people, yet you feel like you are an island in the middle of the ocean. You feel like no one cares, no one pays any attention to you. That you are just there for decoration, that you don't really matter. You are just there to make up numbers so that the powers that be can get a kick out of seeing so many people and have their ego stroked by the fact that there are so many people attending and having a great time. You have friends but no one who truly understands. You feel like you listen, you only listen, listen to your friends problems but all you manage to say is just a tinee tiny fraction of what you feel and what you want to tell them. The conversation is all about them in a moment, always them. Your input is minimal, except when they want your advise. You are the eternal listener. They are friends with you because they need you to listen to them, they don't really care what happens to you. YOU are disposable. YOU are not necessary. No one would miss you if you go. You have a voice but there's no one to listen. There's no one interested in listening.
I felt like that, I still feel like that. The difference is........drumroll.......... I KNOW Jesus listens. Oh, I feel down and lonely. Yes, I hold on to problems, magnified responsibilities, hurts, aches, negative comments and I don't know how to let go. Once when I was a baby I got a hold on the hair of my head and didn't know how to let go. I pulled and pulled, (maybe) thinking that if I did that that funny feeling thing in my hand wouldn't be there. I pulled and pulled and pulled to no avail. The only thing that happened was, I started to bleed. It hurt so much and like any self respecting baby, I cried. This story is absolutely true by the way, I have my mom as witness. That's the way I am with problems, I hold on and don't know how to let go. I'm learning to now, learning to cast all my cares upon Jesus. I have the added assurance that he loves me and he listens. The God who created the Earth and the skies. He who knows the names of ALL the stars in the sky, knows every strand of hair on my body. Even if there are millions and millions of people on this Earth, he listens to ME, me who feels like I'm completely alone, who feels that no one listens. HE, the King of Kings, the Lord of Lords, Creator and Ruler of everything, is willing to listen to me............I feel LOVED~ Very loved.
To anyone out there, whom I know and don't know. If you are feeling down and alone, depressed and hopeless. Know that Jesus cares. He loves you. Very very much. You are not alone. The Prince of Peace is with you.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Different facets of love
Hello, how may I help you? Oh, you would like to know of what purpose is this little piece. I would like to direct your attention to Valentines Day. It seems the world as a whole is still drunk on LOVE. Yes, you probably saw this coming. Love is everywhere. Yes, yes, you would "love" to know what exactly is going on. To cut this short this is my view on the mighty "L" word. Fine, fine I'll tell already. Sheesh, don't you know PATIENCE? It's a virtue. Uhmmm.... lets get the ball rolling, shall we?
LOVE is..............
10. Your puppy bounding to meet you when you come home.
9. Your child giving you a kiss (ask mom)
8. Your children actually doing something they hate because you ask (was forced to write this)
7. The fact that you are alive, you were conceived out of love
6. The fact that you have a name, its a gift
5. Being healthy even if you lack certain body parts
4. The sun shining on you in all its warmth, your nerves work
3. The easiness in which you can smile or laugh, you are surrounded by people who love you
2. Giving, because loves not selfish
1. Jesus, who died on the cross 2000 years ago for our sake. Few would die for the others, let alone go through a painful death.
For further information please go and check 1 Corinthians 13. Thank You.
LOVE is..............
10. Your puppy bounding to meet you when you come home.
9. Your child giving you a kiss (ask mom)
8. Your children actually doing something they hate because you ask (was forced to write this)
7. The fact that you are alive, you were conceived out of love
6. The fact that you have a name, its a gift
5. Being healthy even if you lack certain body parts
4. The sun shining on you in all its warmth, your nerves work
3. The easiness in which you can smile or laugh, you are surrounded by people who love you
2. Giving, because loves not selfish
1. Jesus, who died on the cross 2000 years ago for our sake. Few would die for the others, let alone go through a painful death.
For further information please go and check 1 Corinthians 13. Thank You.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Of pearls and people
I remember an essay I had to write. We had to write about ourselves. Somehow it just popped up in my mind. I got a good score and my essay book took trips around the class, yet I wonder how much of that is still true? Is my self esteem still so low?
The walls are true though. Everyone has their walls and masks. No matter how much we want to we will act a certain way in front of somebody, behave in a certain way, because that is what we were taught. We can't judge people by how they look, sometimes how they behave too. Someone you thought was quiet or didn't notice because they don't intrude and therefore fade into the background, could perhaps be the one who never stops talking. I always think of quiet people as clams, their silent walls filter out those who wouldn't even bother to try to see pass everything and see the pearl within. So we tend to miss. Treasures of people, undiscovered because we judge by looks, by status, anything! You never know what could be uncovered. There are some that aren't nice so, yeah, they don't have friends. Yet I'm pretty sure God knows their inner thoughts, their wants, the real them and there must be something pretty, some nugget of beauty, a pearl whose outer layers are tarnished by the things that have accumulated through the years.
Can't we give people a chance? The quiet, the meek, the shy, the loud mouth, those that don't seem so likeable to you. Don't the clams deserve a second glance? Please, or you will miss those treasures. They're waiting for you to see pass the walls.
The walls are true though. Everyone has their walls and masks. No matter how much we want to we will act a certain way in front of somebody, behave in a certain way, because that is what we were taught. We can't judge people by how they look, sometimes how they behave too. Someone you thought was quiet or didn't notice because they don't intrude and therefore fade into the background, could perhaps be the one who never stops talking. I always think of quiet people as clams, their silent walls filter out those who wouldn't even bother to try to see pass everything and see the pearl within. So we tend to miss. Treasures of people, undiscovered because we judge by looks, by status, anything! You never know what could be uncovered. There are some that aren't nice so, yeah, they don't have friends. Yet I'm pretty sure God knows their inner thoughts, their wants, the real them and there must be something pretty, some nugget of beauty, a pearl whose outer layers are tarnished by the things that have accumulated through the years.
Can't we give people a chance? The quiet, the meek, the shy, the loud mouth, those that don't seem so likeable to you. Don't the clams deserve a second glance? Please, or you will miss those treasures. They're waiting for you to see pass the walls.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Time oh time
As a child, time seemed endless. Tomorrow seemed to take forever to come. Yet all of a sudden, time flows with a speed that chills! Why wasn't it only yesterday.......oh no I sound like I have million's of yesterdays behind me and few tomorrows!! What changed? Is it time or is it me? Is it both or is everything a dream? I want to know. Is it just time flowing, flowing like an endless river, bringing us, it's hapless passengers on fast-paced journey that only a second ago seemed so slow? Is it that my view of time has changed, since now I have so much to do and there never seems to be enough time in a day. Why, I wonder, why? I might know the answer sooner......or later.........
I wonder what life will bring, what time will throw at me since now it is gaining speed. Where would I be in a few years time? Will I see the fruition of the dreams and hope and ambitions blossoming slowly in my heart? Will they stand the first signs of frost? What would I be in ten years? Ten years, oh how long they seem but cheeky time will make sure they feel like a blink of the eye.
Time oh time, why the rush? Why try to drown me in the speed of growing older? I want to stay for a while, to savor life. Time oh time, why can't you wait for me?
I wonder what life will bring, what time will throw at me since now it is gaining speed. Where would I be in a few years time? Will I see the fruition of the dreams and hope and ambitions blossoming slowly in my heart? Will they stand the first signs of frost? What would I be in ten years? Ten years, oh how long they seem but cheeky time will make sure they feel like a blink of the eye.
Time oh time, why the rush? Why try to drown me in the speed of growing older? I want to stay for a while, to savor life. Time oh time, why can't you wait for me?
I created this to write. It's going to be a place where I dump writings. anything I think up of on a whim. This is a little dedication piece. Sorta like a way to open up everything.
Life is like a flower garden, and the many people we meet are like the flowers. Thus, each friend we gain adds more and more flowers into our garden of life. Some are like the sunflowers; they seem to have a larger than life personality and are always chasing after the limelight. Some are pure and beautiful like the lilies. Others are passionate like the red roses and are just as thorny to boot. They come in all shapes and sizes, in colours more varied than the rainbow, all coming together to create a beautiful landscape. Though they tend to blur as we leave each section of life, there are those that continue to vividly stand out. These are the friends that have been good and true to us, that have given us hope and help when we needed them. I'm sure you agree.
Life is like a flower garden, and the many people we meet are like the flowers. Thus, each friend we gain adds more and more flowers into our garden of life. Some are like the sunflowers; they seem to have a larger than life personality and are always chasing after the limelight. Some are pure and beautiful like the lilies. Others are passionate like the red roses and are just as thorny to boot. They come in all shapes and sizes, in colours more varied than the rainbow, all coming together to create a beautiful landscape. Though they tend to blur as we leave each section of life, there are those that continue to vividly stand out. These are the friends that have been good and true to us, that have given us hope and help when we needed them. I'm sure you agree.
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